Hmmmmm where to start this one.....

Paired with the slew of urgh I hate using this terminology but since everyone LOVES to throw around this word. "Emo" journal's in my updates, I also noticed people in my day to day life have also been on a lower note. Me myself have been in an equally down mood and all that fun fun stuff which I think is stupid and I shouldn't be. Ive been stressing myself about school ALOT as of lately and other stupid shit that is all entirely my own fault and I dont beleive I have the right to be at all worried or upset. Thats the way with about all my problems, none of them are birthed from the outside world ALL of them are grown and bred within my own mind, doesnt that make them no longer anything more then petty or pathetic?

I'm not going to go into any kind of detail cause me and journal updates like this isn't really I don't know... It's just not my thing =/

Why I am doing this exactly, maybe its just to fill in some of the few people whom may care but don't know exactly how I'm feeling at this moment. Today tho is worse then it is, this is negative Josh talking so its probably not this bad xD.

Either way, to put it bluntly

I feel like I am a complete loser,worthless,undeserving of the loves I have,have no right to be feeling this way and I am hopeless with just about everything.

I'm not sure why I am putting any of this so it may or may not be just hot air 0.o